He told me that he was thinking of jumping in front of the train. A thought that passed through his head; the easy way out. Then it would be over and he wouldn't have to suffer anymore.
This is someone I admire for his integrity, honesty, intellectual and creativity. He is one of those amazing people who in the right context could be anything he like. But he is stuck. Either in the passed or in the illusion of the present. That is something he is trying to figure out. Meanwhile he is hurting. Sometimes he convinces himself that all is good. He steps back into the illusion. Just to realise it's not for him.
It strikes me that so many people are probably living in an illusion. Suppressed feelings working to get some attention, to get you on the right track. But restricted by fear, the suppression continues. All the energy is spent suppressing. All the focus is on doing rather than being. The more you engage the mind in activity, the harder it is to hear the signals from deep within. There will be a day when the signals can't be neglected anymore.
This is someone I admire for his integrity, honesty, intellectual and creativity. He is one of those amazing people who in the right context could be anything he like. But he is stuck. Either in the passed or in the illusion of the present. That is something he is trying to figure out. Meanwhile he is hurting. Sometimes he convinces himself that all is good. He steps back into the illusion. Just to realise it's not for him.
It strikes me that so many people are probably living in an illusion. Suppressed feelings working to get some attention, to get you on the right track. But restricted by fear, the suppression continues. All the energy is spent suppressing. All the focus is on doing rather than being. The more you engage the mind in activity, the harder it is to hear the signals from deep within. There will be a day when the signals can't be neglected anymore.
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